wow definitely feeling second best right now, like i dont matter, like priorities are changing.. i wait all day to hear from you and then you dont call until after your shower after 10pm and yet you got home at 7.30? When i clealy could have come and seen you but thats obviously not high on your priorities of things that are important to you. I dont want to be clingy, but i cant help the way i feel inside when you arent with me and dont make effort to make me feel special in every way, everyday. Am i high maintenance? Am I clingy? Maybe I am but i dont know how to not be who I am..
I wouldnt usually use this space to express my feelings and hate for someone but i really need to get this off my chest.. this lecturer I have is the worst teacher i have ever met. She belittles me, she mocks me and she tells me to do things without helping me to understand and then yells at me when i do it wrong, how is that teaching? It isnt, it is a power trip. It’s making herself feel good when she is better than everyone else at the one thing she actually has going for her apart from the fact she is fat and has a shit laugh and has a shit rude personality. SPLIT PERSONALITY. One second laughing her head off and the next abusing you for taking too long to get a colour or to work out how to do something…. DOESNT SHE REALISE THIS IS A LEARNING ENVIRONMENT???? Fuccccck. I never swear but seriously she makes me want to bawl my eyes out from the stress she puts on me and the fear she puts into everyone. She failed me on one of my assessments and it was fair because the woman i got had terrible hair.. but is that my fault? I tried so damn hard and she told me I didnt do things how I was supposed too..she does the same bullshit to everyone else but its different when its me. When its someone else I raise my eye brows from the across the room and think shit i am glad this is not me, and then it has been me.. if she was like this from the beginning i definitely wouldnt be here. I would have left months ago, I would have laughed in her face and walked away.. I am determined to finish and to prove to her that her bullshit means nothing to me that I will continue to try over and over until i get my certificate and then i will walk out of that classroom with my middle fingers in the air.. rant over.